Jealousy

Jealousy... a dangerous feeling. Nevertheless, we feel it occasionally. I'm not immune from it either. It's how we handle it that matters.

Of course you can be happy for someone but if you want to feel jealous, the feeling will just come naturally. Like if i feel jealous, i will keep quiet about it and eventually the feeling will go away. So is it wrong if i feel jealous about something which i should be happy for another person but i keep my jealousy to myself? I don't think there's anything wrong with it.

On the other hand, there are shit heads who don't know how to handle their jealousy. They feel jealous, so they must say something mean. I don't know perhaps it gives them some kind of satisfaction by saying something mean. Some will say something mean behind your back or some will say something mean indirectly to your face. Let me illustrate to you some "entertaining" instances that i experienced.

1st instance :
This bitch was suppose to be my friend. She acts so religiously, humble, well mannered etc. I actually believed she was a good person until i found out that she was talking behind my back. I truly hate a person who pretends to be my friend but back stab me behind. These kind of people are thee lowest of low lives. Uncivilized, uncultured. Hypocrites. If you don't like me, you could simply just don't be friends with me. Don't pretend to be my friend, and try to do things with me. Not only that, for someone who doesn't like me all this while, she can still say nice things straight to my face. Now i feel like punching that bitch's face. Anyway, she occasionally accompanied me go shopping when we were still friends and apparently she has a problem with the fact i can buy stuff and complain to another person that i'm wasting my father's money. M*thferF*cker BItch. Sorry for my foul language. God only knows how much i hate that c*nt. WHo in the hell does she think she is to say i'm wasting my dad's money? This is like the kettle calling the pot black. I'm wasting my dad's money aren't i? Well what about the fact that her father spent money for her to repeat her exams? That's not wasting money? All this while when i went shopping with her, it never crossed my mind she has such ill feeling towards me. I'm just like any other girl who go shopping with her friend to buy stuff where you bring a friend a long because you want to ask her opinion whether the thing looks nice or not. Is that wrong? It never crossed my mind to show off they i'm capable of buying something. Sometimes it's better to go shopping alone to avoid this kind of misunderstanding.


2nd instance :
This person who felt jealous with me is a guy. Funny how men can feel jealous seeing what a girl has. Once a while he would say something nasty indirectly. Example : like saying i wasn't independent, etc. Actually that bitch that i was telling you earlier nicknamed me "princess". It was an indirect insult. Doesn't sound that mean but it's meant to be sarcastic. When i confronted him, he wouldn't admit he's jealous up until recently when he admitted it. So i was right all along to feel that he was jealous at me when he make a nasty or bitchy remark and it wasn't because of my sensitivity that makes me think so.


Conclusion : jealousy is normal. Even the devil feels jelaous of human and thus resulted him being banished from heaven. Hmm, i thought one of the differences between angels (the devil is a fallen angel) and humans is that angels don't have any feelings like love, hate, jealousy? I learned that during my religious classes. Nevertheless, that's not the issue now. How to overcome jealousy? If you want to say something mean or think something mean, just do it in your head, don't need to bitch it to other people. Isn't it better to keep quiet than to say something negative? Btw, there's a difference between hatred and jealousy. I bitch because i hate something. And i blog because i hate something. I always keep my jealousy to myself. Sometimes by showing your jealousy, it shows how weak you are.