Sex and Marriage

Hmmm people will probably wonder why am i blogging about marriage since i'm not married and have ZERO experience in marriage. Well, do you need to be a drug addict or an alcoholic first before you can say it's bad or not good? All you need is observations and stories that supports your observations to know it's true.

As a non married happily single person, i sit back and relax and come across married men who cheated and hear stories of married men who cheated. Basically my life is filled with real stories of people who have affairs.

Men who polygamy behind the wife's back is a form of indirect but legal cheating. Just because you can marry that whore behind my back LEGALLY you think you didn't cheat on me before you were married to her? All the "secret datings" with your new whore of a wife that eventually lead to your 2nd, 3rd, 4th marriage are cheatings. What makes you think cheating is only limited to SEX? For me, cheating is when you have feelings for another person and you actually went on dates with the person or you have sex with another person. But of course, secret polygamy is a form of cheating that makes a man less guilty for having cheated on his wife.

Lately i've been hearing stories of husbands being deprived months of no sex. That's quite sad especially if you are just in your 20's and 30's. Marriage is a symbiosis relationship. The husband look after the wife financially while the wife looks after the husband sexually. Why else do most men say that he will stop all his flirting and sleeping around before he gets married? He hopes that when he gets married, he'll get unlimited sex from his wife which will prevent him from sleeping around.

I don't know why the women refused to have sex with the husband.... The reason varies which includes no mood, just don't like sex, sleepy, not horny, husband not good in bed, etc. Well, husband not good in bed, that's a big problem which only can be settled between the partners themselves. How is it the husband is not good in bed? erectile dysfunction --> that should be your major concern. Husband not romantic enough? All these you need to point out because you are already married to him. I know it's embarrassing and awkward to talk about but sometimes you just have to sound like a mean bitch to get what you want. Then if you choose to keep quite bout it, you'll find another man to fulfill your lust?

As for women who just don't like the idea of sex, you'll just have to deal with it unless you don't mind your husband sleeping around because i think there are some women who don't mind. Why not? She gets to remain in the marriage and be financially supported while other women please her husband sexually, something which she is glad she doesn't have to do. That's what you call marriage without love. No jealousy, no love. But please don't be excessively jealous... that's bad and suffocating for the relationship.

Going back to men...
Those who are being deprived months of sex, i feel sorry for you but you just have to demand it from your wife. Cheating is not an option. If you want to cheat, better divorce.
On the other hand, some men are not deprived of sex from the wife but he simply wants to have have a string of affairs for the thrill of it. This is what you call fucked up assholes. This kind of species shouldn't be married in the first place.

Relationship is complicated and hard. When there's a problem, either you deal with it or you don't. If you choose to deal with it, your partner may be offended by the problem you have with him/her. But if you don't deal with that problem, it might cause you to have an affair with another person. Sometimes i think, if the problem is such a big thing to extend it can cause you to sleep with another person, why not just divorce/break it off with your partner? That my dear friends, is what you call being selfish. An affair is temporary but a partner is for a life time.

The way i look at relationships now a days, loyalty has been made redundant.

Random Thoughts of the Day - People

1. I was at a restaurant with my dad today, we were having our lunch. I saw this woman was making a big fuss with one of the workers of the shops because apparently she had booked a table for 8 people but the worker had let it to other people. In defence, the worker was saying the customers insist on sitting there. Then the woman sarcastically says "I'm not your customer then?". Sure it's the worker's fault in not reserving the table but i think the woman was being bitchy and dramatic because the restaurant was quite big and it has an upper floor which is always empty (people are lazy to walk up i guess). Once or twice my father and i had to sit upstairs because downstairs was full but i prefer upstairs because there's aircond. So the worker was saying there's a lot of seats upstairs but the woman insist on sitting downstairs. The way she talked was quite arrogant, thus making me describing her as bitchy. Why can't you just freaking sit upstairs instead of making a scene? I get upset to if i don't get what i want when i already insist on it because if there is an alternative option, why not just give in? Some situations you can tolerate while some you can't. But for this present matter, i think the woman should have tolerated. She acted as if she's some kind of a big shot or whatever.

2. I realized that i can control my temper when people pissed me off right in front of me, especially strangers. Of course later i'll channel my anger via my blog. But i don't control my anger when MEN PISSED ME OFF.

3. Curse you CLP EXAMS!

4. I love Kek Batik!!!

5. I bought a Subway sandwich today. The guy who took my order was cute despite having a "red eye" and it looks swollen and watery. Then i remembered the red eye is contagious. To confirm this, i saw one of his co worker had a red eye too which was more worse because it seems to be more swollen and there's a a big bump at the side of the eye. While admiring his cuteness, i was hoping i don't get infected by the red eye thing. Right now i feel as one of my eyes is burning. Or was that just my imagination because i think too much? When i told this to my dad, he says they shouldn't be working. Which i think is true since the red eye is contagious.

6. I bought new glasses because there was a discount :-D... Bought a black frame. 40% off!! hope it looks okay on me.

7. I have a high guilty conscience. So when i do something bad, it really disturbs me. Then i notice some people who should feel more guilty and remorse seems not to have any guilty conscience.

8. *sigh* i want to have a cat. I just wish i don't have to move around a lot. The thing is my present situation don't allow me to have a cat.

Trust

It's very hard to gain someone's trust, especially if you have broken the trust before. Trust shouldn't be abused and misused.

In a relationship, trust is crucial. When you trust your partner, you don't do things like check his handphone or his laptop, even if he allows you. Of course he will allow you to check his stuff because if you say no, then you'll start becoming suspicious and will be more problematic a.k.a a nuisance to him and demand answers from him.

But you can't check his hp nor his laptop WITHOUT his permission, regardless if he's hiding something from you. Marriage or relationship doesn't mean you give up your privacy to your partners. Some partners do that, and really, i can't do that. I expect some privacy in my life and "space". Just because im not willing to share some things with my partner, doesn't mean i don't love him.

With all the spot checks you are doing on your partner, don't you think it makes you look paranoid and disrespectful to your partner and at the same it will make your partner "smarter" in hiding things, knowing how nosy you can be.

In bf/gf relationship, you frequently check his hp and laptop and yet you don't see anything amiss to indicate his cheating. Doesn't it cross your mind how married people cheat then since the wife or husband is always at home. Would you always be suspicious whenever your husband goes overseas or hangs out with his friends? Truth to be told, that's when he cheated.

I know someone who was never busy body or paranoid about his partner cheating. He never expect his partner to cheat. But he did find out about the cheating early thru his friends. And he just confronted the woman and the woman, being in a state of shock, admit it. And I've seen how cheating unfolds itself in a miraculous way. It may hurt how you found out about it, but you have CLEAR PROOF that person is cheating, rather than exchange of SMSes between your partner and the opposite sex. They could have just been friends, it doesn't expose any cheating.

As i've said earlier, once you abused trust, it's hard for you to gain back the trust. When your partner cheats, you decide to take him back and you think you can trust him again. People always THINK they can do things or PRETEND to accept like nothing bad happened.

When you don't trust your partner because he has cheated before, that's when accusations and arguments will keep on coming. Even when he didn't cheat, you accused him of cheating because he cheated you before. So really, i don't understand how people can live in a relationship like that? You don't want to let him go because you still love him even though he cheated behind your back but yet you never really forgive him for cheating behind your back. And it will take you YEARS to actually realize that you can never trust your partner again and thus ending the relationship. Haven't you waste your time pretending and trying to trust your partner?

Or perhaps you are the kind of person that don't mind getting knocked over so many times.

Football Fever - Fairness?

I was trying to memorize my Contract Law notes. Hell, it took me 10 minutes just to memorized what's the meaning of CONSIDERATION just because a bunch of people can't give the definition in simple English and to make it sound bombastic, they twist and turn the words to give a bombastic definition.

Of course me, still being bitter over Germany's unfair red card given by the asshole referee, become irritated when France got a red card. And the past few days, as far as i can remembered, Brazil and Switzerland got a red card each. So i'm thinking the giving of red card has become a stupid trend among referees in WORLD CUP 2010 because in these matches, according to the commentators it's unfair and unjustified. Maybe i should illustrate to the referee what amounts to red card, by me ATTACKING HIM and PUNCHING him if i was a football player.

I personally think that the giving of RED CARDS is a cheap publicity by referees to be acknowledged in the headlines of newspaper, even though it's bad publicity. They won't appear in headlines if they give good referring compare to giving a bad one. A bad publicity is better publicity than no publicity at all.

Anyway, there's nothing to be proud of winning a match where you are playing against 10 men where the 11th player got an UNJUSTIFIED RED CARD. Sure, you are lucky to win but you can't say you are so great. Would you have win if you were playing against 11 players? It's like playing against a handicap when you are perfect.

Then you have Maradona and his famous World Cup handball. I was having an argument with a friend on this matter because he thinks Maradona is good even if he cheated and that Argentina deserved to in the World Cup despite the handball. And at that time, there was political dispute between Argentina and England so it was a further sweet victory when Argentina won in football against England. So Maradona is a great player, that doesn't justify his cheating. Great players don't cheat.

What pisses me off about this Maradona's handball is that only recently did he confessed he KNEW it was a handball and he intentionally did it. Hand of God you tell me? More of a Hand of Cheater.

People who cheat during exam, do you think they deserve to pass? NO.

People who use plastic surgery to look pretty, do you think they deserve to be complimented on their beauty? NO.

Athletes who cheated by taking steroids, do they deserved to win? NO.

Cheating may go on without being unnoticed but if YOU KNOW YOU CHEATED, at least have the DECENCY not to parade around or feel proud of yourself over your accomplishment which was obtained with cheating. Your accomplishment was never achieved via FAIR PLAY.

Victims of Abuse and Bully

Lately, i've been seeing a lot of videos on bully. To be more precise, i've seen about 4 or 5 videos of it and the participants and victim of the bullying are girls. Hell, they look like normal girls and not those tomboyish girls. So far the videos are all Chinese girls,so i can't understand what the argument was about. I've seen a vid of 2 Malay girls fighting over a boy and that's cat fight. Not bullying. But there's another video which i saw, where a Malay gay boy (he behaves so gay) keep on slapping a Malay girl. That one is bullying since he seems to be angry that the girl reported him to the teacher or something. But it's not a group bullying.

I guess bullying can be in a form of groups or between 2 people.

So putting myself in the place of those who like to bully, i'm thinking why do some people like to bully other people. These are my theories :

1. Some people get annoyed and irritated at the sight of "weak" and quiet people. Perhaps the victim of the bullying LOOKS annoying to the bullies. You know sometimes you have this naturally feeling when you just don't like someone? Some people choose to live that person alone despite not liking that person while there are some who feel he "needs" to do something against that person to get rid of the irritation and annoyance he has towards the victim.

2. Common reason is POWER. When you bully, means you are powerful. You enjoy people fearing you. You think you can get anything you want from the victims of your bullying.

When i see these videos of girls bullying another girl, it reminds me of women who are being abused by their husbands/bfs. My question is, why do some men enjoy hitting women on a frequent basis?

1. Such men are just very fucked up assholes actually. They are very bad tempered people. They release their anger on women because women can't fight back.

2. Women make easy target because not only don't they fight back, they never report the abuse. Some women are SO TIMID that they just let people abuse them and humiliate them. They won't retaliate. When you don't retaliate, the abuser thinks you are an easy target. The abuser have ZERO RESPECT on such people. Why do you want to respect such people? They can't even stand up for themselves and they let themselves being used as punching bags. Because the abuser has no respect for you, he thinks you deserved to be hit, punched and kicked.

In a relationship between a man and a woman, i always believe that the woman shouldn't let the man dominate TOO MUCH over her. I was waiting for the bus one day and i saw this couple were arguing. Then i saw the man pushed her roughly and he walked away leaving her alone. She looks like she's about to cry. I felt like i wanted to slap that asshole. If i was the girl, I'll tell him to fuck off and i definitely won't be with him anymore. And i don't care if he says he's sorry and won't do it anymore. This kind of thing you can't really give face.

Of course, i've seen some instances when the woman is so bitchy that she deserved a tight slap or a punch in the face. People always think it's unfair for a man to hit a woman because he's physically stronger. That's true but i always think that if a woman slap a man, the man should slap her too. You want equality with men, i give you equality. Men have their pride too. So if a woman is bitchy via words, the man should give her a piece of his mind via words too instead of getting physical.

Back to the issue on "bully". I noticed something similar among the videos i watched. The victim never fight back. She just stands there while the bullies take turns to hit her. It's not like as if she's freaking small, she's almost the same sizes with the bullies. So why in the hell she didn't fight back? Sometimes it's hard for me to feel sorry for the victim because i feel the victim is so stupid in not fighting back when someone hit you like that. If you were rape, you won't fight back too? It's a different story if someone threatened you with a gun or knife.

When you don't fight back, the bullies love it even more, it makes them want to hit you harder because they think you are like a dumb doll or something.

It's very hard for me to sympathize with victims of bully and abuse because i find that they don't respect themselves enough to the extent that they don't report. Tell me, is your love for your husband greater than your dignity that you let your husband abuse you, thinking he'll change one day? How long will you give him to change? 2 years? 5 years? 10 years? As for victims of bully, what is so hard to report? You are willing to endure long term of bullying until a video of you being bullied surfaced and the public wants to help you then? You never even bother to help yourself in the first place and you expect others to help you? Of course the public is more compassionate compare to me and you will most definitely get the public's sympathy. yes, i know i sound like some kind of non compassionate bitch. Like how I've emphasized in my blogs, i'm more compassionate to animals because animals are not given the intelligence to think like humans. As a human, you can think. You don't put yourself in a pitiful situation if you can prevent it. Animals on the other hand are helpless beings, especially like cats and dogs.

Sometimes when i see someone kick a cat, i'll get so upset. Do you like it if i kick you, bitch? Animals are helpless because when people hit or kicked them, they can't complain about it. But humans? They can.

Anger Prob?

The process of my anger is simple actually. 90% of the time i vent out my anger through words via cursing and being sarcastic and probably bitchy. In person, when i get angry, i don't curse when people are around. And when i do get angry at someone face to face or through phone, no matter how much i want to use a bad word, i will still think twice before saying it aloud. When i play games like Nintendo or PS, i do swear a lot and i use the word M******** a lot. That one is like automatic.

Do i hate to lose? Who doesn't hate to lose? When i lose, i keep quiet, venting out my anger in silence. Like last night when Germany lost to Serbia, i was damn f*cking pissed off and it wasn't even Germany's fault since they are forced to play with 10 players. So sure those anti Germany fans will be happy and say things that Germany lose or whatever. That i still can handle. But at least they know that it's due to bad refereeing.

Now there's this one particular person who i shall not name, was taking this Germany losing too far and was testing my patience. He enjoys when any of my football team screws up. First time he provoked me, i was angry but i still maintain my coolness. He knew i was angry from the tone of my voice and from the way i was talking to him.

Then later, he provoked me again. Through "sms" about Germany losing. You know if people say things like "hahah Germany lose" or "Germany won't qualify" it won't provoked me that much but when you say something above that like "sore loser", you deserve a bitch slap from me. Fuck you if you say Germany is a sore loser because sore loser would be conceding lots of goal with just 10 men.

Not only does this asshole criticized Germany, but he say provoking things to me, attacking me in person, which only made me more fucking pissed off and he has the nerve to tell me it's just football. If it's just football, why did you need to remind me many fucking times about Germany losing? If it's just football, why do you need to remind me about the match through sms and calls?

The truth? He loves to provoked me but couldn't stand how bitchy i am. Well, if you don't want to see my bitchiness, stop provoking me. What, you think you can provoked me early in the morning and expect me to cool down by evening? I cool down on my own and will need 1 - 2 days to cool down. And yes, when im being provoked, my mouth wouldn't stop talking and i'll be so cold, colder than Antartika and my coldness is enough to show you what i think of you.

It's only natural when you provoked somebody, that person will retaliate and will retaliate even more if she/he thinks the provocation was unjustified. Then this person who provoked this other person seems to be taken aback with the retaliation. What, you think i'm gonna keep quit when you humiliate Germany like that? Nobody humiliates the things that i like.

I was just reading just now how England fans booed England after England just manage to draw with Algeria. Rooney was pissed off. If i was him, i'll be pissed off too. Your country still has the chance to qualify and if you boo them like that instead of supporting them, you think they will perform better for the next matches? I'll show the fans the middle finger. Just imagine if you have a family member who plays in that team, you want to boo them even if they lose or draw? You can boo when justice is not done but don't boo when you didn't win. Do you tell a student he's stupid when he fails his exam? No. I HATE ENGLAND but what the fans did is totally wrong. You call yourself a fan yet you boo your team?

Football. Sometimes the game can be irritating.

The issue with making legal sports betting legal..

First of all, i thought gambling is already legal in Malaysia? You have Toto and the Genting Casino. Those are gambling right? And obviously they are legal since it's being done publicly. So i don't see what's wrong with making sports betting legal? You made NUMBER betting like Toto legal? Is there horse betting in Malaysia? I'm sure that's legal too.

Good thing about making it legal is that those who like to gamble won't be cheated. Then again, maybe they deserved to be cheated for getting involved with gambling.

I don't see the point of being upset over making sports betting legal, saying it's offensive to the Muslims in Malaysia. Yeah, it is offensive but logically, you already allowed certain other gambling and you allowed the sale of alcohol beverages. Although we allow gambling and selling of alcohol drinks in Malaysia, we make it illegal for Muslims to bet and prohibit the selling of alcohol to Muslims. So why can't be do the same for sports betting? Just prohibit Muslims to take part.

Any human being knows that gambling and drinking are vices. Every religion prohibits such act, not just Islam. But many people have chose not to follow the religion strictly. Take for example in Hollywood. Celebrities are having out of wedlock children, as if it's some kind of fashion trend of whatever. But Christianity clearly says that it's a sin to have sex out of wedlock, what more having a bastard? It seems like most people are controlling the religion and not the religion controlling them.

Some people make gambling as a culture, hence they don't think it's wrong.

Truth to be told, Islam is the most strict religion, hence that's why some enemies think Islam is oppressive. Even if it's oppressive, it's for the peoples' own good. Yes, some Muslims do drink, take drugs, gamble and have wild sex out of marriage but MAJORITY don' do those things. Not only that, other pious Muslims will condemn such acts if it's done by a fellow Muslim.

So try to understand Malaysia and the Muslims here. They are trying to take "preventive" action. By making something legal, somehow indirectly you are ENCOURAGING it. It's like the issue with gay. Be gay all you want because God will deal with you during judgment day but don't ever think of getting your gay rights recognized because homosexual activities are not to be condoned.

It's the same with gambling and drinking, it's bad. Next you want strip clubs to be legal? Where are all your moral values heading?

Sometimes when we do bad things, better do it quietly or underground. Deep down we know sex out of marriage, drinking, gambling, drugs and many other vices are bad things. Do we want to get it recognized legally so that we won't feel bad for ourselves? So that we don't have to hide doing all these bad things?

For some, these vices are a "norm" while for others, it isn't.

To Hell With Smoking

One of the topics that i never get bored blogging about is on smoking. I know i've blogged about it many times before but i just don't get bored with it. And i constantly blog about it because somehow, there will be instances when smoking will irritate me. Like last night.

I was at the mamak eating while watching football. Then came a man and a woman who sit at the next table to me. While i was eating, i started to smell the disgusting smell of cigarettes. To my annoyance, both of them were puffing their stupid cigarettes. I was annoyed with the bitch more because she was seating closer to me and i practically have to inhale the fucking smoke. And i end up smelling like the cigarette smoke.

What was i suppose to do? Get up and sit at another place? Why should i? I was there FIRST. Perhaps that's what irritated me the most. The fact that i sat there first, not having to smell any bloody cigarette smell and then few minutes later these two assholes come and sit nearby me and started to smoke, blowing the cancerous smoke at me. Sure, it was not their intention for the smoke to hit me but they would notice where the smoke is blowing to right? Can't they be considerate enough to stand up and go and smoke somewhere else? Some smokers are considerate, MAJORITY simply aren't. You think non smokers like to smell those smelly stuff?

When i was in primary school, i participated in drawing competitions. I'm not Picaso or what but i can draw. And most of these drawing competitions require you to draw something for a campaign, either anti drugs or anti smoking. I have many ideas in my head on how anti smoking advertisements should look like. Back then, because we are just primary school children, we lacked artistic ideas. We can draw but usually it'll just be some direct anti smoking poster. Even those who get 1st place don't really scream creativity, just that the choice of colour and drawing is better.

As you grow older, your creativity and understanding should get better. Anti smoking advertisements should be creative and CARRY A VERY STRONG MESSAGE, make people want to look at it. Some advertisements are good while some advertisements are just plain lame and doesn't carry the right message, like MOST of those PETA ads that like to use nude women to promote their cause.

In Malaysia, i find the anti smoking advertisement lacks aggressiveness. The pictures of bloody baby due to miscarriages, cancerous sore throats, rotting feet don't really scare people. Yeah, it will scare those who become squirmish at the sight of bloody and gorey stuff but most smokers are simply hard core smokers who don't give a damn. They have this attitude that goes "F*ck You. I don't give a Sh*t on your anti smoking campaign activities. Your gory pictures don't scare me". So what can we do with such people?

Attack their conscience. Make them feel the slight guilt. What smokers failed to understand is that their act of smoking can kill those who don't smoke. Have they ever thought if they are smoking in front of those who are more PRONE to lung cancer? Sure smokers think they have strong lunch, hence they'll be puffing until their lungs can't take it anymore BUT what about those who don't have strong lungs as them? Have smokers ever thought it's very bad when they smoke in front of children and pregnant woman?

Ah, and men. They care a lot of about their "little brother" and their sexual performance. Combine smoking and impotency, voila! You might hit the right spot. But seriously, do you think girls find a guy is hot if he smells like a smelly cigarette while she makes out with him?

Below i have provide some very good foreign advertisements on anti smoking which i think Malaysia should follow if the government still refuses to ban public smoking :





You know, i believe this is true..








The message is in small fonts but it reads : "smoking isn't just suicide, it's murder!". For those who are BLUR, it means --> not only do you kill yourself by smoking but you kill others around you who have to smell and inhale the fumes of the cigarette.











Really, i wonder which stupid and irresponsible mother will smoke while she's pregnant. She might as well abort the baby.




I think this is Malaysia advertisement. not as scary and creative as above.

My Dream Cats

i LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CATS... Love them soooooooooooooooo verrrrrry mucccch!! I swear i can just cry looking at their cuteness.. I love fat cats.. I love cats that love to play and cuddle with u.. I simply love "manja" cats... I will spoil them!! I love all cats but below are the DREAM cats that i sooooo dream of having :

1. AMERICAN SHORTHAIR :







2. RAGDOLL CATS





3. SIAMESE KITTY





4. BRITISH SHORTHAIR









5. ANY FATTY CATS









P/s : i think by now u will know im a catophile.

Happy Father's Day 2010!

Father's Day is this coming Sunday. Unfortunately i won't be able to meet him on Sunday since he's going to Terengganu with my brother. But i'll meet him on Tuesday... Anway, i bought him a card, and i really like the words written on the card because that's exactly how i feel. Below is a picture which i took of the card :





And below is the crap that i wrote in the card :-) :



On special occasions, i love to give cards to my love ones. When i had a bf before, i would give him cards for his birthday, valentines and anniversary. And he'll give me cards too, but he'll just write one, two or three sentences. MEN!

Why i like to give cards? Knowing myself, i express my feelings better through words in writing rather than verbally. Very rare for me to express words verbally but i do do it sometimes. I don't say words like "I Love You" or "I Miss You" easily. I only say it when i really mean it. I put value to those words so sometimes it amazes me how many men can say i love you or i miss you to me that easily even when they r not my bf. It just shows either they say that frequently to all girls or they don't really mean it.

Anyway, what i write in cards i mean it. Perhaps that's why i can write a lot in cards because i don't know how to say it verbally or too shy to say it verbally.

So back to Father's day. My dad is the number 1 Man in my life. No man, including my husband (if i had one in the future) can overtake that number 1 spot but that doesn't mean i don't love my bf/husband. It's only logical that my dad is at the number ONE spot because he has been looking after me since the day i was born, provide me with necessities of life, give me the best things in life and always looking out for me.

And what does my partner do? Sure he will look after me once I'm married to him but he will never sacrifice himself as much as my dad. Again, this is only logical. Men will care for his children more than his wife. Why not? Children is his own flesh and blood. Ha, that's why when you read cases on "wills", the husband will leave more to the children than his wife.

Not every man can be the best dad in the world. Not every man can live up to the task of being a responsible father. You hear stories of so many irresponsible fathers doing irresponsible things that they don't deserve to be called fathers at all like rape, backstabbing, murder, etc. I'm just very thankful and grateful that my dad isn't like that and that he's always there when i need him the most. I will always remember the sacrifices he made for me for the past 24 years of my life.

I have learned a lot from my dad. He's a wise man. In a way, i think 60% of my personality is more like him while the 40% is like my mom.

Namawee --> Malaysia's "sweetheart" (implied sarcasm)

This link will bring you to his video on World Cup :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bByWv1jiAYo


While this will bring you to his video on TNB :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAHQGvFqcSE

If you don't know Namawee, then shame on you! Kidding. He's a Malaysian who become popular because of his stupid music videos singing things in a CRUDE and disrespectful manner. His first controversial song was the Negarakuku. Look it up in You Tube. That's another lame fucked up video which i would comment right now but that's old story. Besides i commented it before in my older blogs. The reason why it become controversial is because his video is very racist and he humiliate the "azan". Attack the Malays all you want but you are a real son of a bitch for saying something like that about the azan.

Now, the newer videos i have given in the link above.

The FIRST video :

Probably inspiration from the World Cup 2010 which is currently ongoing. In that video, there's a line that goes "Bola tak boleh, amoi boleh". I think he's condeming the local Malaysia football team since people are always complaining about Malaysia's local football. But what's the shit with "amoi boleh?" It's not like Malaysian football players are involved in sex scandals like the English Club players. Then he wants to bitch about the Thomas Cup? Men, is it so hard for them to respect things? They can't respect themselves, the football game or women. In that video, there are a bunch of sexy girls playing football. Why don't you get real Malaysian girls who play soccer to kick your fucking sorry ass instead of a bunch of girls wearing makeup playing sports who can't even kicked the ball right? And it's disgusting to see the pervert guy trying to grope the girls. Is that how you men carry your image? Some of you anyway. Overall, this is a very distasteful video.


The SECOND video :

Namawee attacking TNB. slightly better but not a good video after all. He did ask reasonable question like why is the TNB building all bright up while the whole of Muar city has no electricity? But if you are RUDE to people, people will be rude back to you. Look at how Namawee ask the questions, lacked professionalism plus with all the rude cursings. And you want people to take him seriously? I'll slap him if i was working with TNB. And i really hate it when people use the word "cibai".. is that a Chinese word because a lot of malay guys use it too. Do you think you look and sound cool saying that? It's a complete turn off for me.


If you want people to take your complaints seriously, do it in a professional and reasonable manner. Reason with people. It's like when you preach to people about religion, you don't force people to listen to you, you make them listen to you but at the same time you do it in a respectful manner, not violently and rudely.

Yes, in my blogs i do curse and bitch sometimes but i give reasons. And i usually use bad words for personal matters anyway against people who did me wrong personally. And when you touch on issue relating to country, race, religion, you MUST be SENSITIVE. You can't simply say rude and mean things even if it's true to some extent.

I just don't like Namawee and his videos. They are rude, crude, distasteful and disrespectful. And only people who have these kind of characteristics will like such video or encourage him to make more videos like this.

Fake Woman

It has come to my attention that there are so many fake things being created for a woman. Let me lists them :

1. Fake eye lashes.
2. Fake contact lenses to make ur eyes super big so you'll look super cute (popular trend in Japan).
3. Fake double eye lids.
4. Liquid foundation to cover ur scars, pores, pimples.
5. Hair extension --> that's fake.
6. Makeup --> Especially the heavy ones, totally can change your whole face like make ur cheekbones higher or your nose sharper or draw your eyebrows to make it perfect. I know, usually people pluck their eyebrows.
7. Silicone boobies.
8. Butt pads. Yes, to make assless women have asses.
9. Fake branded handbags like LV, Gucci, Prada etc.
10. And other fake accessories...
11. Fake virginity. You can do some kind of operation to make a fake hymen so that your man will think you are his darling little virgin and he's your FIRST.
12. Plastic surgery --> gives you permanent fakeness.

So imagine if you combine all these in a woman, she'll be like the ultimate faker. I mean you can enhance your looks or whatever but don't overdo it. Some women can't live without makeup. You'll never see her without her makeup while some women actually goes to sleep with her eyeliner.

All these fake stuff is like an athlete taking steroids. Sure he performed better but can he be proud of his achievements? No. He didn't work hard on his talent. It isn't natural. And do you think a woman deserved to be called pretty if her beauty is man made a.k.a plastic surgery? Any woman can look pretty with make up or plastic surgery. Of course if you are naturally pretty, make up with make you prettier.

No wonder there are so many she males and transvestites. There are so many fake products for women.

Mandarin and Tamil teachers may be made compulsory

Mandarin and Tamil teachers may be made compulsory

If this does happen, then 'sekolah jenis kebangsaan' should be abolished because i thought the purpose of such school was for Chinese and Indians to maintain and sharpen their Mandarin and Tamil language. They can do it at home among family members and relatives but i guess schools are to sharpen their language more. It's the same as the Malay language. The Malays do know how to speak Malay just by communicating in that language with family members but yet they still need to be taught the language at school because at home they don't use the proper grammar. Thus, that's why you still can see Malay students getting grades like D,E or even F for such language. The reason? Not that they can't speak Malay but they are LAZY TO LEARN.

But really, is learning other races language in Malaysia necessary to create racial unity? You see, the main languages here in Malaysia are Bahasa Malaysia and English. First it was called Bahasa Melayu before it was changed to Bahasa Malaysia, because some think it's unfair, perhaps because those who speak Malay doesn't necessarily have to be Malays, which is true so the accurate term is Bahasa Malaysia. So Malay is the national language and those calling themselves Malaysians should be fluent in speaking Malay.

In Malaysia, every Malaysians should be able to communicate in Malay and English with one another. You have 2 languages which you can communicate among races yet the racial unity isn't that strong. Why? So what if you learn other language? If i learn your language, will you be more keen and excited to accept me, as if i am one of you? It saddens me how people use language to "bitch" about others because they think others won't understand what they are bitching about. So the bright side of learning other language is you will understand whether people are bitching about you in other language.

Language isn't the key to racial unity. I think there should be "Malaysian Culture" class. What does this class do? Teach you of the main races that exist in Malaysia like Malay, Chinese, Indians, Singhs and the bumiputeras in Sabah and Sarawak etc. You learn about these races' religions, beliefs, cultures etc. But most importantly, this class will teach you how to respect other culture and races and not to behave in a discriminatory manner to others that are different from you. The idea is to teach people about RESPECT. I know subject like History which is being taught in schools covers this but i don't think it's comprehensive enough, and it doesn't teach things like don't speak in a language to another which some of those surround you don't understand when you are capable of speaking in a language which others can understand you. This is like race etiquette or something. Many don't realize that this is RUDE because many aren't blessed with common sense and consideration. Why do you think we have bad drivers in Malaysia?

As a Sabahan, sometimes i feel insulted at the level of knowledge of Sabah and Sarawak that the West Malaysians have. They think we live at trees or eat weird stuff like worms. Sabah may not be as advance as KL but we are not that back dated either.

What's the point of learning another language if you don't understand the meaning of respect? Or you are ignorant of other people's culture. I've seen non Malays who are very ignorant of the Malay's culture and religion despite the fact that Islam is the country's national religion. You don't need to know in details, just the basic stuff. And vice versa for the Malays who are also ignorant of other races belief and practices. Just because you are the majority doesn't mean you should be ignorant of those non majority.

Racial discrimination also arise because from home, hatred is being taught to children by parents who are not happy with other races. When the children sees this and hears what bad things parents have to say about other races, they will behave in the same manner, bring such bad behavior to school and later in life. The hatred intensifies when these people are surrounded by their own race, thus give more opportunity for them to vent out their anger and bitchiness to other races.

Manly Sports

I was viewing a video of England's goalkeeper Green making his mistake in the match between US and England. Since i don't like England and Brazil and loss or draw will make me happy. Anyway, it was a silly mistake made by the keeper but i did feel sorry for him.

What got me interested are the comments people made for the video, mainly from the Americans and the English people. I know these two have some kind of rivalry between each other so it will always be about who's better. One of the issue is that SOME AMERICANS think soccer or football is lame compare to their every popular "American Football".

Some say soccer/football isn't as macho/manly as American football. My opinion from the perspective of a WOMAN - in the end who gets to determine what's manly or not, woman right?:

1. Soccer/football shouldn't be equated with American football because there are so different from each other. In American football, you need stronger upper body because you tackle with your hand. As for soccer, no hands are allowed unless you are the goalkeeper and the tackle is done via FEET. Some soccer haters say that soccer depends on a lot of luck and the players are a bunch of drama queens. What sports don't depend on luck? Every sports does. As for being drama queens, yes that's true and they need to practice being drama queens to sharpen their acting skills once they quit football :-)... Soccer/Football is more to skills and stamina while American football you definitely need good strength to handle tackles. Basically it's like this, American football screams tackle while soccer doesn't.

3. The REAL sport that should be compared to American football is RUGBY. These two sports are almost the same, they scream TACKLE! Some of the differences? rugby don't use protection like helmets or body pads while football does.

So really, if anybody want to know what sports amount to the ultimate manliness, it's RUGBY.



FOOTBALL. Sure football seems less rough bout they still produce good looking and guys with hot bods... Besides, it's fun watching football because of the strategy/skills. It's an interesting sports. Micheal Ballack!!!! I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU..



AMERICAN FOOTBALL. A lot of tackles but with protection.



RUGBY. A lot of tackles but without protection.

My Blog's New Image

Ahhhh... nothing like a more radiant background.. Orange-red --> a symbol of my never ending anger and bitchiness.

Stricter laws on polygamy

Below i start blogging, below i copy and paste a paste from an online article :

Muhammad did not practice polygamy because he was unable to resist his sexual desires. At the age of 25 he married a women, Khadija, who was 40 years old and his boss. She owned a trading firm that Muhammad use to work for. Marrying an older women who was economically independent, richer and more powerful than him, are not the ways of a narrow-minded male chauvinist. Muhammad was a man of great honor and was widely respected. He could have married whoever he wanted and as many as he wanted since at that time men having many wives was common and often seen as a measure of a man’s status. In his marriage that lasted nearly 25 years, fifteen before his Prophethood and ten afterwards, he remained in a devoted monogamous relationship. I believe that this period of twenty-five years is a measure of Muhammad and his commitment to monogamy. If he did not succumb to his alleged libido in his youth and when society had no problems with that practice he still chose to be the anomaly in his times – a monogamous man

His other marriages in his days as the political leader of Medina must be seen more in the light of his politics than his family life. They were alliances with tribes, they were institutions of social welfare for destitute women and often responses to the contingencies of his time.

The website can be found at : http://www.ijtihad.org/women2.htm

Below is an article on the polygamous marriage of Malaysia's MP Bung Mokhtar and some actress :
http://www.freemalaysiatoday.com/fmt-english/news/general/5754-polygamy-bung-moktar-gets-one-month-jail-sentence

Now let's begin!

According to the article, "On April 20, Bung Moktar and Zizie Izette pleaded guilty at the Gombak Timur lower syariah court, here to the charge of committing polygamy without the court's permission, at the end of last year."

I didn't study syariah law so i'm a bit blur on this matter but nevertheless, i've come across people who have committed polygamous marriage SECRETLY. It seems like the syariah law did provide punishment for those who didn't get the court's permission when they want to commit polygamy.

So if there was such law, why the men that i know who committed polygamy secretly behind their wife's back didn't get punish? Or the law only requires him to inform the court and not the wife? But i did come across an article where not only must there be a court's permission but the existing wife/wives must be present for hearing.

Therefore, if only the court's permission is required, then the wife will still be clueless about the husband's subsequent secret marriages right?

Or perhaps those women whose husband committed polygamy didn't bother to bring such court action when they find out? One, is either there DON'T KNOW of the law which requires the husband to get the court's permission and two, they do KNOW of the law but don't have the heart to see their husband in jail.

Well, if i was them and i did find out my asshole of a husband married another woman, and i chose to divorce that ungrateful son of a bitch who have hurt my pride and dignity, i would love to see him rot in jail for 1 month. i'll report him so court will take action against him if say the law was that he needs court permission.

But if the law is that it's NOT mandatory to inform the wife, then i think the law needs to be changed! Men, when it comes to polygamy they say that the prophet did it, so it's not wrong for them to do it. But what these shallow minded Muslim men failed to see or understand is that the prophet Muhammad did ask permission and inform his wife if he's going to marry another. And based on the passage i copied above, he was married to Siti Khatijah for 25 YEARS.

And what about the Muslim men in Malaysia? Not only did they not inform their wife, but they are only married for like 5,10, 15 years before they married the 2nd, 3rd, 4th wives. See, if you want to use religion as your point of argument, make sure you get your bloody facts right. When i pointed the fact that the prophet informed his wife, some men think i'm lying, saying they want proof. Do you think that the prophet is as deceiving as you are? If you think your decision to polygamy is done in a right manner and justified, why are you afraid to tell the truth to your wife? You are afraid she will cut off your balls? You are a pussy to your wife then? Your decision to marry another women not only will affect you but will affect your wife. So don't be a selfish asshole.

There should be a law that the wife must be informed of the husband's intention to marry another one. Her consent is unnecessary because the matter will be brought before the court where the court will decide whether he's capable of marrying another one and the wife can tell the court whatever she wants.

And if such law is already in existence, women shouldn't be ignorant of such law especially if you are gonna divorce him! Humiliate him with jail sentence as how he humiliated you by marrying another woman behind your back. And make the bitch who he married pay the fine! She should be equally sentenced to jail like the man too.

The "Last Touch" - Whore and MenWhore

P/S : For those who are married or are getting married, DON'T READ THIS ENTRY.

The "Last Touch" have been a common phrase which i've been hearing frequently lately. It applies to people who have sex or oral sex with their ex partner before getting married to another person. They call it final because they claim they won't be naughty once they are married. *Snorts*... Tell me that once your marriage have enter year 5 or year 10.

They are people who are involved with commitment relationship but yet they are sleeping around with other people. I'm talking about both men and women because i hear stories of both doing this. It amazes me to know there are a bunch of people who can be in a committed relationship, saying "i love you", "you are my world", "i can't live without you" and other various romantic crap lines but at the same time sleep with other people. No doubt, i do believe that they do love their partner despite their whoring activities.

This kind of people are greedy. They want stability from their committed partner and at the same time enjoyment from their sexual partner.

It makes me wonder, if you can't be loyal and committed while in a relationship, what makes you think you can when you get married? Although i'm not married, i know marriage is a very difficult task. You have to live with another human being who can be totally opposite from you for the rest of you life and you need high tolerance for that. Some say if they have a child, it should make them more responsible. I wouldn't even want to tell you stories which contradicts this because i don't want to sound as if i'm the queen of marriage destroyer. One thing i will tell you, don't think having a child or more children will keep your marriage SECURE. Learn from the local actress Abby Abadi.

There's only one philosophy in marriage, "ignorance is bliss". What your partner don't know won't hurt the marriage. And when the time your partner eventually finds out, he or she will be TOO OLD to give a shit to your past affairs which you committed while in the marriage.

Going back to the Last Touch thing, i hope i don't have to hear about it anymore because the more i hear of it, the more fake and untruthful marriages are on its way to the making. It only undermines the marriage institution. Real marriages these days are very rare.

Some people have the privileges to only hear the beauty part about marriage.
While some have the privileges to hear the bad but truthful part about marriage. Then again, it's only human nature that people want to hear good things. That's why fairy tales always end with happy endings. Yes, i'm very negative thinker but that's because i acknowledged the pros and cons of everything in life. Good things are always expected while the bad things are very unexpected. Never take things for granted.

Degrading Women?

Seriously, you can't go to bed angry. It's 4 30 am and i was planning to sleep and was trying to fall asleep while reading my Bankruptcy notes but my mind was simply too active. Active with ANGRY THOUGHTS that is. This is like a terrible week for me because there are so many things that pisses me off, not to mention the latest "midget bitch of whore" saga.

Just now i almost had a heart attack when i switched on the lights and found a cockroach on the wall and i was facing the wall exactly, as if the damn thing wants to give me a 'welcome' back surprise. Just a few days ago i was wondering why aren't there any cockroaches at my condo after 9 months staying here, all i saw were lizards. It's like as if the cockroach reads my mind and decide to appear. And i immediately sprayed the damn thing while screaming (cockroach is my phobia). Reminder to self, need to get a more poisonous spray coz the one that i used took a long time to kill the damn thing. Hmmm... i was using a mosquito spray actually because in the state of FEAR, i really didn't look which spray i took.

A hypothetical question for you MEN :

What do u think of a woman if :

1. Her laptop wallpaper is a semi nude hot man.
2. Her handphone wallpaper is a semi nude hot man.
3. She stares and ogles at the sight of hot men.
4. She talks about hot men in your presence.
5. She talks about hot men frequently every time she hangs out with her girl friends.
6. Her wall posters are semi nude hot men either in underwear with something bulging in the middle or shirtless and wet (just being dramatic here).
7. When she watch movies, she screams and make excited noises when she sees a hot man doing something hot.

Do you respect such woman? Does this all sound familiar if it was vice versa for the opposite sex? Well, let me get straight to the point :

I definitely don't respect men who throw themselves at women, who ogles at women, who talks about a woman's body like as if its the greatest thing in the universe, makes too much sexual jokes, who's laptop or hp wallpaper are semi nude women with fake tits etc.

Songs these days talk about women shaking her tits or booty or whatever. Is that how you express your attraction towards a woman? Saying you can't stand it when she shakes her booty? And people accused me being lame or very old fashion listening to Modern Talking love songs or Bee Gees love songs? Hell, at least Modern Talking and Bee Gees actually sing love songs instead of singing too much about a woman's ass and tits. Songs these days sounds as if men are always HORNY for women. The video clips even shows that.

And just now i just saw a pic of a bunch of women wearing g strings and football jersey for each country for the World Cup 2010 and the jerseys are designed in such way that it's cut to show half of the woman's breasts, just about enough to cover her nipples. What i think of this pictures?

1. It degrades women but i really don't care because those women posing like that are being paid and they don't mind being paid to dress like whores.

2. Men stuff are always associated with half naked women. Football is a man's sport yet they use women in this manner to promote it? Men become gaga and horny at the sight of women wearing like this but they are ignorant of women who actually enjoy playing football and have talent for it. Instead, men want to see a bunch of stupid women who are clueless about football parading semi nude in sexy football jersy with shorts as g strings. I guess these are all marketing strategy right? Marketing strategy can kiss my ass for being this pervert.

For me, women should and can be sexy without being degraded by men. And the only way to accomplish that is if the women is sexy because of herself, and not because she is being paid to dress sexy or being paid to attract men. Then there goes your value of a woman. Being used and controlled by men.

Sometimes i find it's useless to fight for rights on behalf of other women because most women just don't appreciate it. Most women prefer to be subordinate to men, prefer to be submissive to men, prefer to be used and abused mentally and physically to men and willing to forsake their dignity in return of money.

And men are suppose to be world leaders right? Men are suppose to be the smarter ones, to be the guide or whatever. Yet they use their power to manipulate and degrade women via advertisements most of the time.

And i'm fucking fed up with men making a big issue about women dressing sexy, hence it's women's fault for attracting the wrong attention and perception. I say, fuck you. You think you are so fucking angelic? Watching porn and masturbating? That makes you a saint? Why do women have to be prim and proper most of the time? We women are deprived of freedom because of men. Why can't we go out late at night? because they are dangerous men prowling late at night and you can get rape or murdered. Everything a woman does it's being limited because of men's high sexuality. And i'm fucking tired of some women accepting the idea that "they are men, it's normal and okay for them to do it". You know what has been the norm is society?

1. It's normal for a man to sleep around.
2. It's normal for a man to cheat.
3. It's normal for man to watch porn.
4. It's normal for man to look and ogle at other woman.
5. Make sexual remarks about a woman's physical.

Because society thinks it's so normal, that's why men keep on doing these kind of stuff without the feeling of guilt. Maybe some do feel guilt but majority just don't.

Damn, it's 5 15 am here.. getting sleepy and tired.. there will be some typos but i'm too tired to check it.

Wandering Eyes

Prostitution. Who should be blamed for the growing business? The prostitutes, or the clients? If there is no prostitute, there won't be clients. If there are no clients, there wouldn't be prostitutes. Either way, it takes 2 to tango. Personally, i blame the clients more because it's their choice to go or not to go to a prostitute.

When i was in a relationship, my ex sometimes look at other girls. This upsets me and i find it very disrespectful of him. He's not respecting me as a gf by looking at other girls. In defence, he said that other guys look at me, and it makes him angry. That is one bullshit of a lousy defence because although guys look at me, i don't look at other guys or say things like how hot that guy is or he's sooo cute. You know why i don't say it? Because i don't want to hurt my ex's feelings. Though this seems like a small and petty matter to be arguing about, i don't tolerate such thing. But he eventually kicked the habit away. Either he keeps the habit and suffers facing my bitchiness at him or vice versa. See what a strict training can do to man? If they can't do what you want, leave them. There are plenty of fishes in the sea anyway. And what you are asking them to do involves showing respect to you as a partner.

Yes, i notice how some guys tend to look at other girls even if their gf/wife is walking by their sides. Then the partner will give that other girl an angry glare, as if the girl is to be blamed for their bf/husband wandering eyes.

It's the most lamest dumbass excuse that guys say they are guys, that's why they have the urge to look at other women. That it's only natural. Or don't blame them if the girl is wearing sexy dresses or whatever.

You know, when men hang out with their friends, they do the most stupid, shallow and thoughtless things like talking about women (her physical attributes), sharing sex stories with each other (who got laid), looking at women when a woman pass by their tables, etc. So when this become such a habit, man bring it into their relationship with a woman, thus commenting and looking at another woman when their partner is just by their side.

Some women are okay and open minded when their partner talks or looks at another woman. Some women are too timid to voice out their dissatisfaction while some women like ME, will give their partner a piece of their mind.

I don't take crap from men. If men want me to respect them, they have to respect me. I don't tolerate any childish manly behaviour, especially those that degrade women.

I watched an episode of Seinfield once, where the comedian says that looking at a woman's cleavage is like looking into the sun. You look, then you look away. Or something like that. You CAN'T STARE into the sun if you don't want to be blinded for life, rite?. Alternatively, you don't stare at a woman if you don't want to get caught in such an act, especially by your partner. But it disgusts me how men stares and comment about another woman in the presence of their partner, as if not respecting their partner's feelings. Women are too emotional you say? Ha, if the size of a man's penis can be determined from the surface like the shape of a woman's boobs or ass, and women start comparing the guy's size, let's see who becomes emotional.

Woman shouldn't be angry at another woman for the bf/husband pervertness. You bitch and scold that other woman for indirectly seducing your partner but are you going to bitch and scold the various other women who your partner is being pervert with? The source is your pervert of a partner. Attack your partner, he has the obligation to be loyal to you yet he breached that obligation.

If say i have a bf and my bf is cheating on me, i will kill my bf. No point killing the bitch he cheated with because God knows, in the future he may just have another affair with another woman. If you kill all the mistresses that he's having affair with, it doesn't stop the fact that he will stop his infidelity. That's why when i read the news of how a jealous bf murders the guy his gf is having affair with, i think it's just plain stupid. And you still choose to be with your cheating partner. What happens if she cheats again? you will kill her next bf too?

Drama Of The Day

1. Sexual implicit Shirts :

Do people even know what they are wearing sometimes? I saw a woman sitting at the bus stop today wearing a T Shirt that reads "Drunk? Free Breathalyzer Test, Blow Here" and there's an arrow pointing down downwards.

That "dirty" shirt is definitely meant for a guy since you blow a guy, you don't blow a woman. It was a foreign woman (look like Indonesian worker) who wore it, so i wonder whether she understood what the words meant?

If she knows what it meant, she should have get a "dirty" shirt meant for a woman. But i 90% believe she doesn't know what it meant. She probably thinks a shirt is just a shirt, who cares what it says?

2. Provoking me makes me a bitch :

I don't like to bitch about people. Usually i just keep quiet, even if i'm not happy with something because i think if the matter is small and petty, why should you bitch about it? Besides, bitching builds a bad reputation for you.

However, i can't helped but bitch when an asshole provoked me. I realized how mean i can be with my words. On the bright side, i kept my bitchiness to myself or bitched it to someone i can trust. I'm still "sane" enough not to bitched to that person who said something mean to me. I find that when i talk about my anger to someone, i become less angry.

I don't take bullshit from people. People may think i'm like quiet and tame, just smileeeeeeee. Don't take the volcano eruption for granted. It can explode any time and by then it'll be too late for you to run. One thing about me, i always think before i say something and believe me, when i do say something mean to you, i mean it and i want you to hear it because you have pissed me off way beyond your limit.

3. Weight :

I love my body the way it is. Some people think the ideal weight is always slim. Well, if you wanna be slim, go ahead. Not my problem. I don't want to deprived the world of the pleasures of a girl with meat.

I'm confident of my body. But there will be one or two bitch or bastard who will try to put me down by saying i'm fat.

I mean if you think you are fat and you are so insecure with your body, that's your problem. Don't try say you are as fat as me or i'm fatter than you (when clearly you are much fatter and not proportionate). I don't need such nuisance in my life.

Perhaps majority like 'slim' but I've met a fair amount of people who have other preferences.


I'm really sick of this weight issue thing. I wouldn't be talking about weight if it's not for some idiot who wants to bring down my self confidence. There are like so many thin people out there, so why are you so concern if i choose not to join those group?

If you know me well, i don't like doing things just because majority are doing it or it's in "fashion" or it's what society approve of.

Palm Reading

For you super duper religious Muslims out there, you probably think palm reading is something Muslims aren't suppose to believe in and it's "syirik" and i think in English it's called Shirk (thanks wikipedia). As for me, i don't believe in it totally but it makes me wonder sometimes...

And the meaning of shirk according to an online source : Shirk (Arabic: شرك‎) or polytheism means to consider anyone god other than the true God, Allah. Shirk is also associating partners with him, giving his characteristics to others beside him, or not believing in his characteristics.

So all those black magic, or susuk (what some Malays practice) is shirk because they believe in "another so called divine power". I always look at "INTENTION" in order to determine whether what we do is against what the religion requires us to do.

Example, people say it's not okay to keep dolls in the house, especially those that look human-like or even to keep animal dolls. They say the malaikat (angel) won't enter the house while some say they are like keeping idols in the house. I remembered my mom pressuring my grandma to throw away her animal dolls (my grandma love animals and there are a lot of stuffed animals or decorations in the form of animals). I symphatized with my grandma. Luckily my mom isn't living with me so she can't order me to get rid of my dolls.

Logically, we keep such dolls not for the purpose of idolizing them, in the sense that these dolls give us power or protection. We keep it because it looks cute and pretty and it's part of house decoration. So keeping these dolls can't be equated with keeping them as idols. Hence, it's not wrong to keep these dolls. Unless you keep a large amount of cat dolls for the purpose of worshiping it or thinking it gives you protection then that will amount to shirk.

Palm reading is not shirk either. My idea of palm reading is the fact that each of us are born with different lines on our palm. God created us, and God created those lines. Perhaps in some way, he have provide or give us some clues to our destiny or something. In the end, my belief still goes back to God himself, not other divine powers. Like dreams too, sometimes i believe it's like a message from God, trying to tell you something or perhaps even warn you. Some say dreams are just your sub consciousness.

interpreting your palm is almost like interpreting ur dreams. is that wrong? There are no involvement of other powers, it's just using your brains to figure out your body.

Below is a test that i took on my palm reading based on the lines of my palm. Though some of the interpretations may make me sound like a selfish biatch, but there are some truth to it. Ha, and palm reading is similar to figuring out your personality via your style of writing too.



LOVE LIFE :

You are a very selfish lover. You live for yourself and care little for the people around you. When your partner commits a mistake, you can be very unforgiving. If you like someone, you stop at nothing to get that person in your life. But after winning your love, your devotion and attention level drops like a brick. You are emotional in love. You will have moments of ultimate happiness in your love life. You are likely to be cold and less passionate. You are calculating in all matters of love. Your head rules your heart.

MARRIAGE :

You will have a happy marriage. There will be lots of love between you and your life partner. You are unlikely to get involved in serious relationships (before marriage) in which you will contemplate marriage. You are not likely to get married early in life.

HEADLINE (MIDDLE LINE) :

You think independently. You have quick judgment and are mentally strong. Because of your fast thinking, you are brilliant in studies and whatever else you take up. Find your life goal and work towards it. Strong ambition will bring you success. You might face periods of illness in your life.

LIFE LINE :

You are likely to lead a happy and healthy life. You are likely to be very passionate and romantic in life. You are kind and caring towards those around you. You are ambitious but try not to become complacent in whatever you do and you will achieve much. You are more likely to have a lifetime of good health. You have strong will power. Your body will show more resistance in times of ill health. You are more brainy than brawny. You most likely had a happy childhood. You are likely to lead a comfortable life with less downs and more ups.