Saturday, February 27, 2010

weird, taboo, disgusting?

In a certain social network which i won't name, a guy tried to add me. His profile picture looks like a transvestite but he didn't show his face. So he tried to be friendly by sending me a message online. Curious, i asked him is he a transvestite.

He said no. But he has a fetish of dressing in sexy women lingerie. What surprised me more is that he's in his 50's and he's MARRIED (like legally married to a woman). I looked at all his pictures in his profile. He never showed his face, only tons of pictures of him dressing in sexy (more like super slutty and prostitute like) lingerie. From see through dresses to g strings and fishnets. I like sexy lingerie but i won't buy one that looks like what a cheap prostitute would wear.

His wife is NOT AWARE of his "weird" fetish. Hell, if i was the wife and i found out that all this while i've been married to a freak, i would kill him! So this guy dresses in women lingerie and take pictures of himself. Personally i think the pictures were hideous because his body is 100% like a man so imagine a man wearing women lingerie? Lingerie only looks good on a woman with curves. Lingerie are not meant for men because they don't have the built and the softness of a woman's body. And it's disgusting to see the guy's penis bulging in a see through woman panties.

As for his sexual orientation, i think he's a bisexual. I can't remember what he told me. But truth to be told, i was disgusted by people like him and so i just stopped answering his messages and didn't even add him.

I feel pity for his wife if she were ever to find out. Or their children (can't remember if he has any children). It made me wonder, if his sexual desire is more towards men, why did he even bother to get married? To cover up his disturbing sexual desires and his fetish to dress in women lingerie? I've heard of stories where gay men, who knew very well they were gay, simply get married to a woman hoping it will changed his sexual desire towards his own kind. then after years passed and realizing he's pretty much super gay, he divorced the wife and goes back to his gay roots.

Other weird, disgusting kind of people :

1. Those that like to have sex with animals. You often hear this kind of craps in the news. In Malaysia, goats are the most likely victims.

2. Pedophiles. Men who have sexual desire towards children. Why do men have such desire? I read somewhere once that children are easy sexual victims because they don't put up much fight compare to women. Besides that, perhaps these psycho bastards are attracted to their "innocence" and innocent looks.

3. Transvestites. i don't need to elaborate on this because it seems this kind of sick people are increasing in Malaysia, working every where.


Sometimes it made me think if these people were brought up in a different and better environment, would their sexual desires be NORMAL? How could such weird sexual desire exist? And why only certain people experience it? Take transvestites for example. It would seem like if a boy is brought up in a family of ALL girls, there will be a probability of him growing up acting like a girl because of the female influence in the family. Nevertheless, it is not necessarily true. Some did turn out to be a TRUE MAN despite being surrounded by girls. While there are some who are not brought up with strong female influence in the family yet turn out acting all womanly. A hermaphrodite is a different story.

Or are these people simply suffering some kind of mental illness? Or is this simply their very own fault for choosing this kind of lifestyle, hence they can't blame God for what they are. I prefer this kind of view. We are what we are because we choose to be that way instead of fighting back the weird urges that we might have because we KNOW IT'S WRONG.

Hence, this human rights crap fight for gay and lesbian rights are definitely against the teachings of religion. why shouldn't we discriminate such people? they are a diseased in society. You know what, be as gay or transvestite as you want to be but don't go around demanding people to recognized their rights because they don't deserve it. We don't want to encourage homosexual relationships in out society. Whatever gay activities you wanna do, do it privately.

As for those with other sick, disturbing and disgusting sexual desires... mental problem is the only reasonable explanation.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Men can be real bitches...

I'm in the mood of bashing men.. so if you are a man, don't read this entry.

There's a saying that goes "
Lelaki ada 9 akal, 1 nafsu. Perempuan ada 9 nafsu 1 akal". It's a phrase commonly used but after googling it up, i still can't find the source of it. On the surface of the phrase and without totally analyzing it in detailed, i would have to agree on the statement based on instances which you can OBSERVED with the EYE in our society nowadays:

1. Men's basic and FUNDAMENTALLY lust ---> WOMEN. Cars and sports suppose to be men "toys" whereby they use women who are scantily dressed to promote sports and cars. Why do men have cheerleaders for basketball while women basketball team have no men cheering in TIGHT SHORTS? Why do u have half naked overly thick make up sluts advertising themselves with cars or bikes (im pretty sure these girls knowledge on motor vehicles are like 0.5%). Many more examples but i won't mentioned all.

2. Men are smarter than women. They r "supposed" to be leaders of the country, why? Because women are supposedly "too emotionally" to make reasonable decisions. Most women don't really care to be politicians because they are more concern with fashion and make ups than politics. Hence, this explains the 9 "intelligences" that men they have. I hope that's the correct English translation for "akal". Basically, men are suppose to be smart and "leaderly" despite the fact that most of them end up in jails and juvenile centers, becoming transvestites, dressing and acting like women, becoming mail escorts or gigolos, catering the needs for married women or DATINS. Need i illustrate more?

3. Women have many lusts --> sex, makeup, fashion, handbags, clothes, accessories, etc. Look at women magazine, they are hardly half naked guys posing here and there. Do we have a calender of half naked men posing every month? Do we keep half naked men as wallpapers for our laptops or hand phones? Truth to be told, we are attracted to good looking guys with great bodies but we don't go gaga over them as much as men go gaga over naked or half naked women. In a woman's life, we DON'T REALLY ASSOCIATE OUR INTERESTS WITH HALF NAKED MEN.

4. So women only have 1 intelligence? I admit, in a class of 20 students for example, there will be a lot of top scorers who are women but perhaps the best student would be a man. The prob with men is that they are smart, but they LACKED DISCIPLINE (unlike women), hence that's why they have discipline problems and most end up in jails. So because women are not as smart as men, we are expected to be "less smart" hence, we need the guidance of men. Hence, the reason why men should be the world, country, state, and family leaders. Hence, because men are sooo smart, they use their intelligence to degrade women in many ways. Like in SOME COUNTRIES, they make prostitution LEGAL, allow porn magazines to be sold, allow porno stuff etc...


You know, women are always associated with being bitches because they gossip here and there, back stab one another. One thing i admire about men is their "brotherhood" bond. It's strong, and they don't talk bad about one another except maybe go around sleeping with his best friend's gf or ex gf (coz only a woman is capable of coming in between them).

Woman's "sisterhood" bond is laughable. A woman won't be that friendly to another woman that she doesn't know. Men, on the other hand, can communicate to all kinds of men, making instant friends. Women don't make instant friends.

One thing that i learn about men is that SOME can be REAL BICTHES. A woman who bicthes another woman don't really degrade that woman like how a man degrade a woman. I've come across some men, who would publish pictures of sexy girls (they copy and paste the pictures from the girl's social networking profiles) and then make a "porn like" pages of these girls. Or comply a video of these girls pictures. Or go around giving the girl's number to other guys. Or bitch they have slept with this girl and that girl.

You see, when a woman bitches, she only say bitchy things (bitch about clothes, styles, fatness), unlike men, who do bitchy stuff to women who they don't even know (i assume, they suffer sexual deprivation), thus the need to do these non sense of degrading women in a sexual manner.

Really, if men are suppose to be smarter than women and be the leaders of women, they should RESPECT women. Not disrespect them. The problem with men is that if they see a prostitute, or a woman who he thinks he can easily that advantage of, he will USE them just because they think these women are 'goners'.

But in this society, everything will be blamed on the women. If a woman dresses sexily and was raped or taken advantage of, they blame the women for dressing in a way to attract the wrong men. Personally i think that if you are BLESSED WITH 9 INTELLIGENCES, you won't let yourself be CONTROLLED BY A WOMAN, unless that 1 lust overpowers all your 9 intelligences.

In this society, women are limited to do what they want because of the danger of men. We can't go out late night because it's dangerous. Why? Dangerous men prowling on the street. We can't dress whatever we want, why? Because it might attract men.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Some Women Degrade Themselves Well...

Lately, a lot of big names Hollywood celebrities are caught having affairs. Actually, lately those caught in affairs are sports stars namely Tiger Woods, John Terry and Ashley Cole. So many are having affairs, I just got fed up about blogging stupid disloyal husbands.

So today i found out Tiger Woods made a press conference apologizing. Good for him. The irritating part is that one of the bitches he had a affair with wanted an apology too from Tiger Woods. Excuse me, this bitch is a porno star to begin with and KNOWS VERY WELL he's a MARRIED MAN (please don't tell me she doesn't know who's Tiger Woods and that he's married. If she doesn't know, she's a real bimbo with zero intelligence).

I was thinking, this bitch probably wants to make sure that this scandalous affairs of Tiger Woods go on a bit longer so gold digging bitches like her could get more money from detailing the affairs they had with Tiger Woods.

People say that if you have a friend, and you saw your friend's partner cheating behind your friend's back, you shouldn't get involved by telling your friend what you saw, let your friend find out by himself/herself. As far as i am concerned, if someone saw or KNOWS my partner is cheating (especially my HUSBAND), i do want them to tell me instead of keeping it to themselves and make me a look like a fool while my partner cheats.

So all those bitches who kiss and tell about their affairs with MARRIED MEN in order to get PUBLICITY (especially in the cases of celebrities caught cheating), may you burn in hell. If really they want to get back at the cheating guy for having affair, they should just confront the wives personally, instead of going to the media and get paid to disclose juicy details of the affair and get cheap and free and lame publicity.

I guess some women, thinking they are already whores, there's no harm in becoming world class heavy weight whores by announcing publicly they are sleeping with married men. And yes, i was damn pissed off when the public only condemn Tiger Woods but not the stupid whores who go public announcing their affairs with Tiger Woods. not only that, the public and media make them richer and popular by indirectly supporting them when they don't condemn their acts of sleeping with married men.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Shopping = Sex

Talking about marriage life, not many women love sex as much as men. Many married men will blame women on sex, claiming their wives always give excuses when it comes to sex. We women (most anyway) are simply born not to love sex as much a men.

Man's love for sex, is like woman's love for shopping. Men can have sex every day, women can go shopping everyday. Men need women to have sex, women need money to go shopping. You have SEX ADDICTS, and you have SHOPAHOLICS. Men will never feel tired to have sex, women will never feel tired to go shopping. Men can talk about sex 24/7, women can talk about shopping 24/7.

So really, i get pissed off when men say women can't think of nothing else but shopping and enjoying. I can say the same thing about men, they can't think of nothing else but SEX and enjoying because when men have sex, they enjoy. When women shop, they enjoy. If you want to truly understand how women can be soooo in love with shopping, it's like how you (man) are soooo in love with sex or anything sexual.

At the same time, women can't blame men for loving sex because think of how us (women) love shopping. But in the end, these shopping and sex have one similarity. It's a matter of CONTROL and PRIORITY. Life is not all about sex, and neither it is all about shopping. If you are too obsess with sex, you are a pervert and if you don't control it and simply have random sex, you might catch a disease. As for UNCONTROLLED SHOPPING habits, you'll have financial difficulties if you don't control your spending habits.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

The TYPES of MEN i have come to known...

1. Naturally born perverts.

2. The CYBER PERVERT PRETENDERS - men that look, act, sound "INNOCENT" in PERSON but in CYBER SPACE via SOCIAL NETWORKING and CHATTING they are nothing but "pussy" perverts whereby they won't show they real identity in cyberspace because of their pervert-ness. People who don't know them in cyberspace won't have a clue what a pervert they can be.

3. Cheating bf/husband - the typical kind of men. Like Tiger Woods really. Or John Terry (Chelsea footballer), Bill Clinton etc. Chua Soi Lek?

4. The world class Casanova/Playboy - good looking, great body, charming but a WOMANIZER. Fool women with his cheap, sleazy words. Praise the woman he's targeting like a goddess. Personally, the moment a guy starts showering me with non stop compliments, i know he's soooo fake. Some act like spoilt rich brats.

5. The nice and decent ones. Really, they do exist only their species are very rare. Took me about 2o years to know one. Not controlled by lust. And they are really caring and respect women.

6. Gigolos.. Unfortunately i do come across such men on social networking. They are simply male prostitutes, don't deserve to have any BALLS at all. Or even a PENIS. What kind of a guy live off on women with money or women in need of companionship. I don't care how modern this world have gotten but one thing WON'T change - MAN MUST BE MORE RESPONSIBLE THAN WOMAN IN TERMS OF BEING INVOLVED IN RELATIONSHIP.

7. The Alpha Domineering Egoistic man. A man that is soo egoistic, don't really show his emotions much. I can't live with a man like this because i have an ego of my own. For this kind of man, only a submissive woman can deal with him.

8. Religous ones (i rather like to call them religous fakers). They just have a thing against women who don't behave like how a good mannered realigos woman ought to be behaving according to the teachings of religion. Meet these bunch of monkey idiots while i'm studying at matriculation. just because i don't wear a head cover, they will call out to me that i'll burn in hell. didn't religion teach these fakers to be polite?

9. The 2 FACE MAN - this is the type of guy that keeps a DECENT girl as his soulmate but at the very same time go around fooling with other girls for fun just because he thinks these girls 'deserved to be played with ' because he judges them on their appearance and behaviour. It' simply like this --> Oh, you look and act like a slut, so i just play around with despite the fact i looooooove my partner to death. What she won't knows won't hurt her. Actually this is like guy type no. 3 in my list but the difference is the 2 face man guy type is more cocky and arrogant and thinks his action is so justified, but the fact is, it isn't.



I know my lists of types of men that i know won't just end here.. but so far, i'm thankful to know such men do exists to make me more aware of men and their deceitful ways. At the same time, i would say i'm blessed to know the nice ones too.

Men... i hate you, but i love u at the same time.

Quoting a part of the lyrics of "Buses and Trains" :

Hey Mom
Why didn't you warn me
Coz about boys is something i should have known
They`re like chocolate cake
Like cigarettes
I know they're bad for me
But I just can't leave 'em alone

Saturday, February 13, 2010

This is what i personally think of anwar's case...

This case can be so freaking simple but yet i don't know why people have to make it so damn complicated to the extend that Saiful need to be asked the disgusting details of how the homosexual activity takes place. I really don't like Anwar but that doesn't mean my view on this case will be bias because you'll see it that it won't be bias.

I'm doing law but i'm not an expert at it so i will just look at this matter from a common sense point of view with perhaps a little bit of law elements.

Saiful alleged that he was sodomised. How do you proof you were sodomised? Video of the sex would be good. But of course we know that won't happen so hence, MEDICAL REPORT, which will clearly states that Saiful's ass was penetrated and Anwar's sperm was found in it.

You adduced the medical report so now all Anwar's defence have to do to save his ass from this sodomy allegation is to show that the medical report is forged or perhaps not accurate. But what is the defence trying to do now? Postpone the trial! If really they have nothing to hide, why don't they just cross examined Saiful and try to DISCREDIT him as a witness?

Saiful is another idiot. Regardless of whatever his motive is, he's young and strong and could just refused Anwar. But from the way he described how the sex happened, it seems like he wants it too since he didn't do any POSITIVE ACT to refuse the sex except telling Anwar "NO" when Anwar asked to have sex with him. After saying NO, he just follow Anwar's instructions which eventually led to the so called sex. Not only that, he didn't go to the hospital IMMEDIATELY to have medical examination after the alleged sodomy. This made me think whether the Prosecution have any concrete proof to show that the medical report did in fact clearly state SAiful was penetrated in the ass and Anwar's sperm was found in it. If condom was used, then one can't find Anwar's sperm. If medical report just shows Saiful's anus was penetrated, that's insufficient evidence coz he could penetrate himself with anything to make it look as if he was sodomised. And if the medical examination was only done 1 or 2 days after the alleged sodomy, will the dried up sperm remained there?

What i believed in Saiful's testimony is that he didn't pass motion up to day he did the medical examination, therefore Anwar's sperm/skin or whatever that can be left inside someone's butt hole after sodomy which can be use as a DNA can remained there UNDISTURBED.

So where is the goddamn medical report?? Why don't Prosecution just show it? What kind of court room drama are they trying to do here? Trying to embarrass Anwar by prolonging the trial (Anwar's at fault too since he didn't choose to cross examine Saiful immediately once the examination in chief was conducted by prosecution)?

Do the Prosecution really have a strong case against Anwar? I'll say yes if they can show that freaking medical report. Or are they just gonna rely on statement of witnesses? Camera video showing on that day itself Saiful and Anwar was at the condo (then again it could just be business work). They can be in the same room but yet you can't proof they had homosexual sex except by medical report or video capturing the act).

Some say that it's ridiculous that Anwar is being charged for the 2ND TIME for sodomy, whereby Anwar's supporters claim it's the government's attempt to overthrow Anwar once and for all. Personally, i don't think it's ridiculous. Example : i may be charge for theft and it seems like i did do it but at that time, there wasn't enough evidence to show that i really do it. Then few years later, i'm being charged again for theft and this time perhaps the evidence is better and can be used against me. how many criminal cases actually show that the offender got away the first time but was eventually caught for the same criminal act? So my friends, it's NOT IMPOSSIBLE.

This court room drama can be over but instead the parties choose to prolong it instead of getting straight to the point. Both the acts of prosecution and defence are questionable. Again, a clear cut example for you out there to think :

if i was a rape victim, i'll go get myself a medical report showing i was penetrated and get the person's DNA as a proof that he was the culprit. Then i'll go to the prosecution to get my case started (i think this is the way anyway to get a case going for a prosecution to bring a criminal charge). Give them my medical report. The offender will be notified of the charges alleged against him. Of course he'll demand what proof do i have in court. prosecution will show the medical report. He can't deny it unless he claims :

1. Medical report was made fraudulently (whereby the offender have to proof it).
2. The sex was with consent (so it can't be a rape), again, he must proof consent.


The courtroom drama, the delays, are just getting on my nerves. Delay and prolonging is only justified when there's conflicting evidence and each party have to proof who's evidence is more credible than the other. Attacking your opponent's case based on technicality is the last thing you will do when you really can't proof your innocence (because from the very beginning, you were PERHAPS never innocent!).

Thursday, February 11, 2010

No Saint...

One of my many flaws is the fact that i don't forget easily, in the sense that I'm a person who carry grudges for a long time, perhaps even until i die i will die with grudge against those who did me wrong. Not that i get angry at everyone who did me wrong and never forgive them, i'm not that crazy but these grudges that i have are towards those who really hurt me, humiliate me, degrade me with their words or actions.

People would tell me there's no point of me keeping these grudges, it will just make me look and sound ugly. I think otherwise. It's a matter of principle. The principle of hatred.

I hate these people beyond anything and could only wish the worst for them. But i will never do anything to destroy them. I only wish and pray and if they actually suffer, it will actually bring joy to that little evil part of my heart.

Just because i tell people what these people that i hate did or say to me, it doesn't mean i'm bad mouthing them or trying to jeopardize their so called 'good image'. I'm only telling the truth, and i have proof of what they actually say to me. Example :

If i simply call person A a whore just because i don't like her and she never did any wrong to me, that's bad mouthing.
Now, if i call person A a whore and she actually goes around sleeping with men, that's not bad mouthing.

So why i choose to keep the hate and not just forgive them? The hatred doesn't consume me because i hardly remember i have grudges against them until i see their stupid faces or hear from them.

Yes, i take pleasure in seeing the people that I TRULY HATE suffer. They deserve it for what they did to me. Even hatred have stages :

1. Normal hate --> you simply hate someone because you don't like his appearance or attitude. The common hatred. But you don't wish something bad happen to him.
2. Vengeance hate --> somebody did wrong (not those normal typical mistakes) to you and you want pay back. You wish the worst for this person. It depends really how u want the pay back. You could do a POSITIVE ACT to destroy that person, you can just ABUSE the person verbally and wait KARMA to take it's course on that person and just sit back and relax and watch the person suffer.

Monday, February 1, 2010

About Men...

At this "old" age of 24 (just celebrated my bday last month), i have met and dated all kinds of men, ranging from those who are sweet to those pure evil bastards.

I am conscious of what kind of image i portray to guys based on the way i dress whereupon guys like to take advantage because they are simply stupid and SHALLOW.
This is the problem with men ---> they see a girl who dresses sexy, they think the girl is open minded, sexual etc. Hence they make their pervertish moves. But that same pervert guy wouldn't behave like that to a decently dressed girl. So tell me now, who is the 2 face bastard here?

Once a upon a time i was NAIVE, when i was between the age of 15-20. My naivety led me to anger, sadness and heartbreak with men. I was lied to. But i always move on because i never let my hatred for men get into my way of happiness with future men. At this naive stage, i did many stupid things which I'm not proud of but it is a learning stage for me. After all, there are bound to be mistakes which i will make with men. You will never learn anything unless u make a mistake. Of course, some mistakes can be pricey...

When i was studying in matriculation, there was this whore of a bitch who told me i won' get married because of the way I dress, as in no men would want to make a woman like me as his wife. I'm not angry that she insulted my morals or whatsover but i'm angry at the fact that she dare say no men would want to marry me. Who in the F*ck does she think she is? She's an OVERSIZE Ape and uneducated (she flunk her matriculation and plans not to continue her studies and instead get married and be a baby making machine). With her bloody ugly monkey face, she thinks she can FOREVER keep her husband happy? Up until now, i have wished for nothing but her marriage to FAIL like shit. I may sound more evil than Hitler but that is how i am when i REALLY REALLY HATE SOMEONE WHO DID SOMETHING WRONG TO ME. No amount of apology i will accept from that kampung whore until i see her suffer for making such statement to me.

Anyway, I'm diverting from the main topic of this blog entry. I can get carried away when I'm angry.

I know men because i have met those who are GOOD and those who are EVIL. By not knowing the evil ones, how would you truly understand the very nature of men because 80% of men out there are manipulative, unfaithful, like to take advantage and are perverts.

Because some men think I'm a girl with loose morals, they DARE to show their ugly sides (and all of these are revealed through out chatting and social networking). There are married men who cheat, bf's who cheat, bfs who want to break up but couldn't do so because the gf wouldn't let go. Some men are soooo happy with their partners but yet they cheat with other women for fun. Some men say they cheat now but when they get married, they will change. Some men they are sooooo tolerant with their gf/wife's bad habits/attitude to the extend they are willing to be in that relationship while at the same time seek the symphathy or love or fun from another woman.

Men, they have this 'I don't really care attitude'. They don't listen, they don't care. They are simply not emotional. They don't feel guilt as much as women. They are controlled by their sexual desires. Most of them are like that any way.

For a long time, this kind of men are the only ones that keep on crossing my path. Then i come across those decent and nice ones, the ones that can be a family man, the loving ones, the responsible ones, the one not controlled by their sexual desires. But these men are very rare species. They exists, but very rare. Unfortunately, even for these men, they never get the right women.

It's funny indeed where the bad boys get the right women while the good ones get hurt and dumped by the wrong women. So be bad then you say? Why change your principles just because you get hurt, dumped or heartbroken? Only unwise people do that. Take for example, a girl who get screwed by her bf, then dumped by him, thinks the world is going to end for her and thus become a prostitute because she thinks all men are the same. Or a girl who was raped, thinks the world is going to end, and decides to be a prostitute. A man who gets dumped by a girl, can't handle the hurt, starting to hate all the girls, and start to use and manipulate any girls that he meet. All these are STUPID PEOPLE. You don't commit suicide or be a bastard or whore because you get dumped. You take this as a valuable learning experience. There are so much more important things in this world than a failed relationship or marriage.

There is NO such thing that all men are the same or all women are the same. I used to think that way about men but i was sooooo wrong. Nevertheless, that never stop me from bitching about men because most of them are assholes anyway.