Shitty Days ... all thanks to my so called PMS, giving me all those foul moods, lowering down my self esteem, making me extra super duper sensitive etc etc... Kryptonite is the weakness of Superman, PMS is the weakness of me. PMS, comes once every month but last 1-2 weeks before my period.
I do not simply make PMS as an excuse to my foul moods because for the last 13 years since the very 1st time i had my period, my PMS got worse in my 20's because every month, i can see a typical pattern of my PMS and i've been keeping track on it for the past 3 years. Every month, i would most definitely cry and the smallest of matter can make me cry. Like yesterday, i was crying when i watched an episode of Heroes Season 4 where Peter's brother died. I can usually stop myself from crying but when it's PMS time, my PMS will overpower me.
There are some days when i love my body, and some days when i just hate how my body looks. And like today, i feel like a fat cow. My self esteem is just like shit for the past few days. For me, self esteem is like the most important weapon in your life against anyone. If you have high self esteem, no matter what negative things people say to you, you won't be bothered by it. People can keep calling you fat or ugly or whatever it is but if you think otherwise, you will never doubt how you look.
But the moment your self esteem is low, the slightest negative comment, be it indirectly, can make you start doubting yourself and thus you will feel miserable as hell.
Stupid imbalance hormones.
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